Well, I didn’t run away and join a hippy commune (though tempting), I wasn’t pregnant (seriously??), I didn’t quit modelling (hell no) and I didn’t get abducted by aliens (oh, crazed person just outside Pittsburgh, your emails make me laugh… and fear for my life).
I’ve been busy (nothing new there) but I also had an epiphany during a bittersweet sunny morning at a beer festival in the mountains and decided that I was spending too much time trying to ride the social media beast and not enough time actually living the life I wanted to blog about. I was constantly setting myself up for failure based on numbers while ignoring the sights and experiences that are literally all around me. Just as I got all of that sorted out in my tiny mind, I had my heart stomped on and lost a friend in Afghanistan a week later. Hence, the vanishing act.
I don’t want to dwell too much on the past unless it is really necessary so I’ll move on…
I want to thank the lovely people who not only remembered my birthday but sent me messages, cards and presents! Sadly, I can’t see an address on some of the packages so I can’t send out my usual personalised thankyou cards! If you sent me a present, please, please mail me letting me know what you sent me, along with your address and I will send you a belated thankyou. :) <3
In the past few months, I shot the album cover for a rock band, met several model friends in person after many online chats, explored the forests of Norway, spent three wonderful and healing days in a hippy commune in Switzerland and achieved the splits once again. I’ve posted some snapshots of my time away below:
Switzerland. I used to read a series called “Puddle Lane” as a small child, which featured a quest for the Blue Mountains. Well, I found them! :)
Norway’s forests and cyperpunk underground! :D Sadly I saw no moose on this trip, but maybe another time. Moose are one of my ‘spirit animals’ (I’ll tell you why one day) so I consider any time I see one to be special.
So, back to work! :D
I’ve been lent some latex by Lady Allura (yes that is latex on the left!) and bought myself a stripy latex catsuit that will feature in a blog soon. For now, here are some behind the scenes snaps…
That, on the right, is a shark shaped seat. The studio we worked in does a lot of childrens’ portrait photography so is full of crazy things to pose with between ‘serious’ shots.
I’m posting photos wayyy out of sync at the moment but am trying to post them in a way that fits with what I’m blogging about at the time, so here are my most recent photos- taken only a few days ago by my host “Elegia“. She has a really distinctive style and so I’ve wanted to work with her for ages! (Though I’d suggest opening the link at home- she does some very beautiful, very erotic projects).
I have always loved seeing polaroids develop and being in the mental place I’m in now, it was rather therapeutic watching Elegia place these little blank cards down, which slowly began to show my face in black and white. Like a literal representation of me returning to the world after a long absence. During the shoot, I wanted to show a slightly more ‘raw’ version of me so spent some time not posing. The results I got are exactly what I had hoped for and I love them. :D
It’s good to be back. ;)