4 Jan

Well, this is exciting! Not only did we have an “apocalypse”, but we survived it into January… πŸ˜›

My blog wouldn’t be the same without the “last year” lookback, and it was only the other week that I actually took the time to look back over my past year and remember that yes, I have done some fantastic things and learned a lot too. If you’re new to this blog, welcome, first of all, and if you’d like to see the fantastic things just have a browse. πŸ™‚

Β I learned…
– That a person can be truly unhappy without realising it is so, and that such a thing can drastically affect their health.
– That a person can do everything possible to achieve their goals, but if they are not releasing the work to the world, nothing and no one will see, and nothing will happen.
– That while I may never believe myself to be brave, I am capable of doing the occasional brave thing.
– That at last after a full decade of bullying, letters to plastic surgeons and one desperate attempt at self-surgery, I am truly, completely, and 100% happy with the way my nose looks.
– That sometimes you cannot sit around and wait for your situation to change- you must be the maker of that change. These are words I’ve read a million times, but this year they made sense.
– That although I am not disputing the fact that they may work, I do not agree with restrictive diet and meal plans for weight loss, and am now finding the right balance for me.

I’m not enlightened- not by a long way. In fact, I can be kind of dim sometimes, lol! But I’m trying… (As in, trying to be enlightened. Not trying to be dim. Obviously.) πŸ˜€

Sooooooo… On to 2013!!!

Well, I have quite an interesting modelling announcement coming very soon, but for now the goals I’ve making public are…

– To travel to at least two new countries every year as long as I continue to model for a living.
– Whether I decide to have a contortion stageshow or not, to achieve some of my favourite poses
– To wean myself off sugar to the point that I am able to refuse sugary snacks because I genuinely don’t want them
– To have a novel (or my short story trilogy) published and begin my third novel.
– To volunteer somewhere- hopefully abroad.
– To improve my French and/or German. Rude words do not count. πŸ˜›
– To be nominated for this year’s Miss Fetish award

As always, I have some images for you- it’s the rule! Some of these, you’ve seen- but others are new or teasers for upcoming publications. Talking of publications, I have a seven page editorial in this month’s Jade magazine, as well as a couple of pages accompanying a feature on John Tisbury! πŸ˜€

I tried to get a “Top Ten” of my favourite images in 2012, but it was just too hard. Oh well… πŸ˜‰

Behind the scenes:
With Jessica Abidde at the Boxpark for a Playful Promises fashion show

Being fitted for stockings at a shoot…

Modelling AM-Statik latex at Berlin Fetish Ball

Between shots. Because why not? Pics from the shoot coming soon…

Strutting our awesome stuff for Playful Promises! L-R: Signe, Beth, Anita De Bauch, Jessica Abidde, Me

In New York, before a guerrilla fashion show for Vengeance Designs

Pin up
Between shots at a studio day.

Why? Because moustaches. That’s why. With Pirate Photography

HELL YEAH!!! In Montreal, with Jinx, and wearing Dawnamatrix Designs.

In action:
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Little wood sprite! Photo by Nick Edinburgh

Pretzel! Photo by Jan Bassett

Autumn wishes… Photo by Pirate Photography

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Somewhere Beyond The Sea… Photo by G Haskew. Dress by Anatomic Bomb

NYC boudoir. Photo by John F Cooper. Basque by Gossard

The Lux Twins- Photo by G Haskew. Outfit by Lux Tenebrae

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Showgirl. Photo by JUUL

Berlin Sundust- Photo by M-S Photography. Outfit by AM-Statik

Protection. Photo by Paul Ward. Fellow model- Indefinite Anomaly

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The giggles! Photo by Pirate Photography. Outfit by Anatomic Bomb

Flames of Autumn. Photo by M-S Photography

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Earthly Power. Photo by Imagesse

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Island of Tranquility. Photo by Imagesse

Tribal. Photo by Ego Photography. Make-up by me.

Ponybright! Photo by M-S Photography. Outfit by AM-Statik

Tumbles… Photo by Pirate Photography



* Janus is the two-faced god that the name January comes from. One face looks into the past, and the other to the future. Across the road from my best friend’s house, someone has made a topiary Janus head! I tried to take a picture but got too many weird looks.

10 Responses to “Janus*”

  1. Liddy January 4, 2013 at 6:03 pm #

    Why on earth would you want to change your nose? Did you want plastic surgery to make it bigger or something? =P Mine looks like a potato but it sorta fits with the rest of my face – like mr potato head =P

    Amazing photos from an amazing year! I don’t know how you have the energy for it all!

    Stay curvaceous, stay vivacious and keep writing =]

    Oh and I can help you out with the German, I’ve done all of my exams and am now an official native speaker / ‘master’ of German XD

    Don’t underestimate the importance of learning rude words in a foreign language! =P

    Happy 2013! xxx

    • roswellivory January 7, 2013 at 1:08 pm #

      It was one of the many things I was bullied about and if you hear something too many times, you start to believe it- especially if you have no self-esteem to begin with. I wanted the bump gone, and to make it less pointy. I’m cool about it now- I don’t love or hate it, which to me is fine. πŸ™‚

      And thanks for your lovely words- it’s been quite a stressful year but I’m looking forward to the changes this one will bring.

      Oooooohhhh!!! That would rock- thanks a bazillion! How do you improve? One of my Polish friends watched English films with Polish subtitles.

      Happy 2013 to you too!


  2. Anita De Bauch January 4, 2013 at 6:27 pm #

    I love all the happy smiley photos! But “one desperate attempt at self-surgery”, what what whaaaat?

    • roswellivory January 7, 2013 at 12:56 pm #

      Aww thanks! πŸ˜€
      It was *years* ago. I wanted to make the bump on my nose go away. All fine now and you can only see the scar if I tan. Which I don’t. πŸ˜›

  3. Frivolous Monsters January 4, 2013 at 8:42 pm #

    I’m sorry to read your comment, but I’ve never thought your nose ever looked out of place. I don’t know from what you say how you’ve come to find happiness after ten years, but glad you have. Hopefully we can all come to accept ourselves, and be happy, for what we are.

    • roswellivory January 7, 2013 at 1:13 pm #

      That’s so kind of you, and thankyou. πŸ™‚
      A photographer changed it beyond recognition and my anger and indignation about it made me realise that I really have put at least that part of the bullying I once suffered behind me.

      R xx

  4. Romantic Dominant January 5, 2013 at 1:10 pm #

    A year of perfect images. I hope your 2013 is wonderful.

    • roswellivory January 7, 2013 at 12:53 pm #

      Thankyou so much! It’s been wonderful so far πŸ˜€

  5. Liddy January 7, 2013 at 5:45 pm #

    Improving German….let’s see…well, you could do anything really! I find that the best way is to read a book you have already read in English (that way you already have an idea as to what it is about) but in German. I’d read Harry Potter in German and it really helped, I also got to learn really important vocab like Besen = broomstick and Zauberstab = wand =P

    Watching films with subtitles is really difficult for me because I concentrate on the subtitles so much that I just ignore what is being said. I’ve seen a lot of French and Spanish films, but I can’t speak either language! =P

    To get an idea of how quickly people talk in German, you could listen to a live German radio station online. Try this – http://radio.orf.at/ it’ll also help you understand how people speak, not everyone in England sounds like the Queen, so not everyone in Germany / Austria / Switzerland sound the same either.

    Hope that helped! And if listening to the German radio puts you off then don’t worry, French is the nicer, more romantic sounding language anyway =P


    • roswellivory January 9, 2013 at 11:52 am #

      Oh, that’s a good idea! I may have to get down to the library and do that. πŸ™‚ Thanks! And LOL- always good to know the German for “broomstick”- never know when you might need it. I asked a friend what German he knew and he proudly announced “Ich habe eine meerschweinschen”. I have a guinea-pig. Great… πŸ˜‰
      And thanks for the radio station link!

      Lol! I know French is a beautiful language, but I love visiting Germany and would like to be able to speak the language in case I fancy staying there for longer.

      If I make it to Vienna this year, I’ll buy you coffee in exchange for a German lesson! πŸ˜€


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